the long memory

written 11 September 2002 copyright © 2002-present James Sanghyun Han (a.k.a. steal this and DIE)


call me trite

but they told me not to forget
as if i ever could

how a man was killed for his "towel-head"
how people suddenly became experts on international conflict
when they had never read the news before

call me cynical

but they told me to observe
and yet all i could observe

was a bored people starved for a cause and matching scapegoat
was a people quick to rally behind flag stickers
though they'd never fulfilled their civic duty to vote

call me dirty leftist
but they told me to love my country
as if i ever could

after seeing "fuck all sand-niggers" scrawled on a bathroom stall
after being honked at and flipped off
for playing groovy Algerian music on my car stereo

after seeing vengeance and jingoism replace intelligent policy
after seeing item after item of right-wing agenda
being carried out under the guise of national pride and protection

and they told me to remember
and yet all i can remember
all i can think of

is being told that the ability to see both sides is unpatriotic
is being told that one cannot love one's country
if one is ready to offer constructive criticism

all i can think of

is being told that thinking of the causes is wrong
is being told that remembrance of wrongs is only allowed
when the wrong has been done to us

is being told that the long memory must yield to the short
when the wrong is ours

so all i can remember
is my disappointment at my fellows

cause they told me not to forget
not to lose my long memory

and i never could


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