to the brim
written 13 October 2003 copyright © 2003-present James Sanghyun Han (a.k.a. steal this and DIE)
| whether it's cause there's excess or it's a side effect from holding in tears i feel like there's too much i have to say to you like a dam where all the cement is strained so much i have to show to you to give and do and release from its stores and i want to open the floodgates more than anything but i know you'd run further if you thought you'd have to swim so i hold the cracks shut with both hands and my whole body and the bolts i can hear them shrieking as you look up from below your distance-absence is like the spring thaw melting my strength and filling me to my brim and under the harsh rays illuminating my new lack fresh, bracing optimism converts into lukewarm mud and the waves slop over the edge and the cracks grow long and wide and i cry out in despair as the jets blast between my fingers and my last thought as i fall and sink into the wet is that i want to be washed over to you that we can embrace under the eddys and take solace in the midst of all the turbulence surrounded by cold but warm, as we hold each other tight (Ran-chan ni) |