independence day

The Stupidity Opus - 1997, Number 7.4

written 6 July 1997 copyright © 1997-present James Sanghyun Han (a.k.a. steal this and DIE)


it was so hot that July 4th evening
you were so hot that July 4th evening
you were as cool-handsome as Paris swimming in that pool
you reflected the beauty of Narcissus
that July 4th evening

i want to touch you but i shouldn't
i want to talk to you but i can't

you sat there as i looked at you
and you looked
and i looked
mentally open-mouthed/swooning in awe of your beauty
outwardly aloof to hide my vulnerability

i want to kiss you but i shouldn't
i want to hold you but i can't

you're a boy who pines over girls
i'm a boy who pines over you
i was giving a sick friend a massage
but it was your shoulders i wanted to squeeze and relax
that 4th of July evening

i want to love you but i shouldn't
i want to fuck you but i can't

we barely conversed or even made eye contact
except those uninterpretable furtive looks that hot 7-4 evening
but we giggled like loons the two of us
because of your inexplicably moistened windshield
during that trippy 30-second-too-short ride in your car

i want to read this to you but i shouldn't
i want to read this to you but i can't

(for Mike B.)


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